To be honest, I don’t even know why I’m writing to you again today. I’m not a complete loner, you know. I promise I’m not. I do have friends. At least I think that I have friends. We just don’t talk much. I’ve never been very popular, especially at school. I’m not one of those tall, blonde, skinny, size 2 model type girls. You know, the ones that everybody adores? I’m just me…quiet, little, Jess.
Before school, I wake up early. Early enough to completely cover my face with makeup. I need to look perfect for school so I start with my eyebrows and then eventually start disguising my whole face by creating a mask to cover all my imperfections. This is made out of foundation, concealer, eyeshadow, blusher, bronzer, highlighter and finally my waterproof mascara. I tend to not put too much mascara on, even though it’s waterproof, just in case. I really do put so much effort into my appearance on school days, not like anybody ever notices anyway.
To be honest, I just feel like I’m a bit of an outsider. I’m a sixteen year old girl, just like all the other girls in my year group, but I just feel so different. I don’t even know why. I just feel like I see the whole world in a completely different way to everyone else. I must do.
I can’t lie, there’s only one thing that I really want in life. I want to be happy.